So, I discovered an interesting side effect of recovering from a tornado in this modern social-media age: over exposure. I felt so over exposed with all the details of our destruction and recovery. EVERYTHING was out there: our ages, our clothing sizes, our life history as people from our past shared how they knew us and what they thought of us, our injuries, our fear and sadness, and our happiness, too. It was all out there.
I was so amazed by the way people we had known from birth to 2 days prior to the tornado came together to support us. So many items, notes, and checks made their way from all over the U.S. to our doorstep. People emailed or wrote or called to see if we had received what they had sent and to see how we were doing. The goodness of their love and generosity made processing the trauma of the tornado very difficult. I wanted to be happy and was happy for all the support, but couldn't escape the fear, sadness, anxiety, and anger that was apart of the tornado experience, too.
I felt very confused and too known and needed to hide. That's where I've been--hiding.
I'm ready now to continue to share our story.
Thanks for your patience and for the kind notes of encouragement I've received since my last post 18 months ago.